fickle minds

Oh no, can’t sleep and it’s almost 10 now..

What’s bothering your mind in the night is often the things that you can’t let go during the day. For instance, when you see something that you like during the day, you tend to think about it during the night, that’s if you REALLY like that thing or person.

Feeling nothing is really something new to me. It’s like the world around doesnt exist but appears so real at the same time.

THere are times when you feel so lonely in this world that you start questioning your presence here…sometimes you even doubt it. Other times, you are like on top of the world, knowing that you have everything that you’ll ever ask for from this life. I certainly prefer to ponder on the latter… What’s the meaning to life if there’s no satisfaction?

I believe there are far greater things in life apart from romance and that the fulfillment that one can get is just something that cannot be described nor fixed.there are no impossibles in the world unless u tell yourself there is.

Being given the opportunity to study in Canada is beyond everything that i could ever ask for from my parents. Mommy dearest knows me the best and i’m truly truly grateful that she does. I just hope that in the near future, i will remember to remember all the things that she has done for me unconditionally..well maybe on one condition is that i dont marry an ang mo..haha..I dont know about you but i think the more you fear of something, the faster it will hit you…

Life is just a journey of decisions

Does your heart pump rapidly when you meet a guy of your dreams? OF course..but does it feel the same when you see a friend? perhaps that’s just abnormal.

Smiles can be dangerous as they are the main reason one is attracted to another. With merely a curve on the lips can indicate so many things. A grin is something that I’d definitely fall for, especially pearly whites..ish..that’s so stupid isnt it?

Spending time with people I’ve heard but not known of is an absolute eye opener. You realize the things that you’re missing for not socializing enough. I always fall in and out of LIKE very quickly…I feel that it is due to the insecurities and the fact that I have too much time on my hands.KNowing very well that these guys are not even close to the type of guys  I like, I know I only like them for a simple reason- companionship.

Judging on the outlook may not be the wisest choice but it certainly creates a spark. Getting to know a person more will stop me from liking him even more, that’s for sure. It’s just a complicated web..It’s better to be left alone than to figure it out..