-jun-
things may change through the course of time but feelings that grew will never fade away..at least for a long time.
when we first met, i remembered i shouted your name and you were pretty shocked about it. in the process i suppose, you grew fond of me. when things actually happened, i was so oblivious that i wasn’t prepared when you actually confessed to me. we hung out sometimes. you cared so much for me that i sometimes feel a pain in my heart. your excellent grades and remarkable performance in co-curricular activities made me realize your true potential.
letting go of something so important because of the words i say makes me wonder if you had made the right choice then. looking back, i see selfishness, insecurity, jealousy, possession, excitement, guilt, and perplexity. giving your all does not always mean you’re guaranteed to have at least a decent treat in return. in this case, it certainly didnt happen.
the one time when you came to me with some medication made me wonder if this is all worth your love and effort? trust being the most important element was lacking in our relationship, at least from my side of it. taking things for granted and ungrateful behavior was definitely present at that time.
all i can feel of now is regret, guilt, sadness, insecurity, lost and insincerity.
more often than not, it takes a while before we figure that somethings are good and what isnt. but very very often, it’s always too late.
anyway, all i’m asking for now is the chance to right the wrongs and that i am truly sorry for what i have done.
