fickle minds

Through a vast collection of biographies from all my beloved friends, this is what I can conclude about what they think of me…

The many things that people say about Amy Tan:

1.  Wonderful
2.  Thoughtful
3.  Caring
4.  Laughs like a SCHMUCK
5.  Rational
6.  Future Abusive wife
7.  Physically Strong
8.  Pink girl
9.  Schmuck
10. Helpful
11. Friendly
12. Sweet
13. Smart
14. Independent
15. Pink lover
16. Crazy Cute laughter
17. Creative
18. Epitome of Happiness
19. Pain in the A**
20. Nice
21. Brilliant
22. Attractive
23. Sampat
24. Pelajar yang baik
25. Ramah
26. Suka buat lucu
27. Cantik
28. Bubbly
29. Perfectionist
30. Open minded
31. Cute
32. Stylish
33. Crappy
34. Cheerful
35. Polite
36. Hot
37. Cool
38. Chun
39. Special
40. Good
41. Only girl who joins the guys during PE
42. Modest
43. Fun
44. Contagious laughter
45. Crazy
46. Sexy A** (according to people)
47. Active
48. Witty
49. Bold
50. Sporting
51. Artistic
52. Stunning
53. Hysterical
54. Compassionate
55. Sanguine
56. Happy
57. Gossip
58. Fun
59. Enthusiastic
60. Lover
61. Happy-go-lucky
62. Hardworking
63. Clever
64. Beautiful
65. Short
66. Perfect
67. Great Charisma
68. Good in communication
69. Wanted
70. Love to play football
71. Laughs too much
72. Knows how to enjoy life
73. Talented
74. Determined
75. Sense of humour
76. Joyful
77. Lovable
78. Naughty
79. Kind
80. Responsible
81. Naive
82. Teacher’s dream come true
83. Intelligent
84. Bright
85. Neat
86. Joker
87. Clown
88.Wonderful
89. Durian Cake Supplier
90. Laughable
91. Comel
92. Colourful
93. Lame
94. Spontaneous
95. Sociable
96. Optimistic
97. Outgoing
98. Ganas
99. Fun Loving
100. Scared of getting FAT

Phew~ That’s the last one..so yeah, this is what Amy Tan is all about… Do let me know ur opinion of me if you have other things to add on..lol

things may change through the course of time but feelings that grew will never fade away..at least for a long time.

when we first met, i remembered i shouted your name and you were pretty shocked about it. in the process i suppose, you grew fond of me. when things actually happened, i was so oblivious that i wasn’t prepared when you actually confessed to me. we hung out sometimes. you cared so much for me that i sometimes feel a pain in my heart. your excellent grades and remarkable performance in co-curricular activities made me realize your true potential.

letting go of something so important because of the words i say makes me wonder if you had made the right choice then. looking back, i see selfishness, insecurity, jealousy, possession, excitement, guilt, and perplexity. giving your all does not always mean you’re guaranteed to have at least a decent treat in return. in this case, it certainly didnt happen.

the one time when you came to me with some medication made me wonder if this is all worth your love and effort? trust being the most important element was lacking in our relationship, at least from my side of it. taking things for granted and ungrateful behavior was definitely present at that time.

all i can feel of now is regret, guilt, sadness, insecurity, lost and insincerity.

more often than not, it takes a while before we figure that somethings are good and what isnt. but very very often, it’s always too late.

anyway, all i’m asking for now is the chance to right the wrongs and that i am truly sorry for what i have done.