fickle minds

Ever felt hopeless and useless at any time of your life? well i’m facing that right NOW.

Is academic achievement really everything in your life? It somewhat seems like it to me right now but i really don’t hope so…Knowing very well that there are so many other things in life that we have to pursue and cherish, i can’t help but feel a pang of despair when i was told of my mid term marks.Although it might not even matter when i continue my course at ADP..BUT BUT..sigh..i guess that’s just the fact that cannot be changed at the moment?

Silly to think highly about MARKS all the time, isn’t it? I should probably stop obssessing about getting perfect score or sth or i’ll just go bonkers.

Perhaps making friends would be much fun in this phase of life..

Maybe…Apart from that, I can’t help but get all excited when i think about taking a part time job at an art and craft shop! It somehow perks me up during a bad day..so i shall ponder on that thought when i’m feeling down..muaahahaha..

I’m still wondering, what is life all about?

WOW..it  has been like ages since i last BlOggeD..hehe.not really in the mood today but then ..lazy to study my Calculus. scrolling through my friends list.realized i had so many ‘friends’ on the list but none whom i really talk to.so is it sad to have so many friends but not one whom i can talk to or is it even sad to have no friends at all but one?

i really can’t figure that out.

college. nothing much going on other than the fact that i can’t really do well in my World Issues subject.breaks my heart. Trying real hard to excel.So far econs and calculus are manageable. I made a handful of acquaintances.MMm..Life is tough without friends but it’s tougher not to do well now and suffer later in life?

Considering the fact that i’m pretty lost in my education path, i really got no idea what i want to do. Am i not supposed to be focused and determined of what i want to do? Well..it really depends. Hoping that i’ll come to my senses..SOON enough.

Sitting alone at the cafeteria, staring into the blank space, the occasional passer by, rabs my attention for a split second and i realize how important is it to have friends. Not like i dont want to have any at the moment but am too tied down with the workload. perhaps this aint the best times to socialize too much as i know for sure it’s gonna affect my studies. moreover, taking all 3 dry subjects aint something easy.

Feeling empty deep within is simply awful. Seeing ppl who walk hand in hand, smiles plastered on their faces motivates me a little that there’s still hope in life.

This is the very first time that i find making new friends immensely difficult. Expecting everything to run smoothly like the past is merely gonna hurt me even more as i know life isn’t that simple after all.

How true is it that smart ppl deserved to be respected and admired?

Please enlighten me..