pang of betrayal
i couldnt describe how i feel right now but it’s a mixture of betrayal, insincerity, selfishness, and unfaithfulness.. it aint such a good combination after all. cant even bear the thoughts of thinking about anything other than what i have done with my life so far?
getting all the A’s in the world doesnt exactly fills the void in my life.there’s no true fulfillment and contentment in what i am doing currently. being on top of the world may be everyone’s dream but it aint mine alright. although sometimes u think u can trust someone, you actually can’t.
when you think that a person is very nice and loyal to you, you’re actually WRONG. they turn their backs on you when you’re in real need. that’s when they show their true colours. hoping only for the best in their lives, i hope they’re happy with what they have done. knowing for a fact that infidelity was most likely to happen, you insist on indulging into the puddle of mud. so whose fault it is? no one but my own.
insensitivity is actually rather common in most guys these days. disregarding how you feel or think by all means in order to satisfy their hunger isnt really what i want in a guy. although there are times when you feel like you’re falling and about to snap, you should stop and think if it’s all worth all that?
people who dont appreciate what you do for them dont deserve your care and attention at all.they only show you how true ur friendships are.supposedly there wasnt any in the first place?why would anyone on earth want to do that? well there are ppl like that fyi..sigh..life is too short to cry over spilt milk, no point wasting time being upset over silly things that you’ll laugh about in 10 years time. it’s not such a big a deal anyways? aint it?
realising the very fact that you aint all that likeable is the utterly relevant to your self esteem..figuring the very idea that actually you arent that important is equally as crucial..
