fickle minds

have you ever thought of ur life? wondering where and what you would be doing next? thinking of whether you should do this or not..? comtemplating about what to do next weekend with your friends? or if you should spend more time with you parents? ….i have..

in fact, it has occurred to me so many times that i should be able to organise my time well and allocated some of the time for my parents. as much as i love them, i dont seem to be showing it a lot lately. to those out there, you might never know when will be your last day seeing your loved ones. so loving them NOW is extremely essential. if you dont love them now, when will you? when it is too late? should be grateful that they are here to spend one more day with you, share your stories, listen to your complaints, and fulfilling your every need.

but why do some people take this for granted? maybe you too should stop and give it a thought….

when you live your life, is everyday the same to you? do you feel like you’re on a biological routine? never mind the workload that you’re assigned to do every week..or perhaps DAYS..never mind the times when your teacher asked you to buck up and try your best the next time..never mind the times when you fail in your task and feel like breaking down and cry…never mind the glitches you have while working on a project.. so give it a little portion of your time to think about it, i’m sure you’ll come to a conclusion where you can set your priorities straight.

i am so grateful that i have two EXTREMELY loving, understanding, caring, responsible, suppostive, kind, generous, cool parents most people dont have.good for you if you do too..i appreciate their decision in things that i sometime cant find to agree..they are reasonable and try to make me understand why ar they doing that to me..i love the fact that i am able to sit down and talk to my parents like best friends…how i wish they never have to leave me forever…

i suppose you get very emotional when you love your parents so much and are unable to spend some quality time with them? maybe it’s bcoz i’ve been neglecting them seeing that i have so many assignments, projects,presentations, tests, and what not?

i will make it a point to TALK to them..NOW..

i’m wondering blankly in front of the computer screen of how some ppl can mistake your good intentions as an insult? well well, i guess that’s why we’re suppose to learn comprehension in english classes. so very frustrated..spoiled my mood for the nite..

apart from that, my day was pretty good.took some photos at college and while i was at it, i got to meet so many new friends!!! it was like superb!! i met like vivek, a nepali, good looking..then chanelle, like a superstar..then there was chiew nee, a thai mix dunno wat, pretty n model like, somemore got han john, din get to know him dat much YET..er..i met who somemore ar..iman lor, this guy i’ve seen several times in OS class..got jennifer and gaby and toni and muhammad and kian chee and aurora…and …and dunno who else man..lol..

as you can see there were a number of ppl i got to meet..somemore they were like from A lvls and SAM..so very cool..then we had to wait for scenes to take photos in ..which was the boring part but then knowing me, i wasnt bored lah ..we got to enter the mechanical sth room..n guess what? i got to see them pop the corn!!! OMG..dat was like..AMAZING~ whoohooo so so so lucky..n it was so fascinating i was glued to it..n this adrian, haiyor..terrible..say i jakoon..wat the crap..he thinks he’s so cool lah now’?! harh adrian? say i never see ppl pop the corn before lah now? smart..u’re the one who doesnt appreciate science wei..hmph!! at least i had a great time..

sometimes its hard to fathom one’s feelings when u’re not in their shoes..stinky shoes..eww..dun intend to..perhaps some people jz have their own ways of expressing themselves..bleh, cant expect everyone to be like me rite? i think i’d b freaked out if everyone started acting like me..haha…

my life is too short to be sad over minor goofiness like this.having fun so far.studies coming off well i suppose..but i gotta start being more determined to go on a real diet.have been neglecting my health lately..which is really BAD..i need to meet someone n know someone who’s really health conscious so that i’d b influenced by him/her more or less..sigh..

hmm..lets see..i think i wana look like..jessica alba? no no no..way too challenging n impossible..how about beyonce knowles? haha..no thx..haiyor..got deciding problem here..hope someone who happens to read this can enlighten me..i really cant decide on how and how..hehe..

oops, sorry d, din know you will read my blog..haha..ok ok ..will try to choose darker colours.moreover i chose them randomly lah ..never give much thought to it..sorryy…

Beauty is something everyone has. it’s a matter of whether you can see it or not.

To some, it’s the model looks which is considered gorgeous, to others, being a sweetheart is all that matters. sometimes i think about the things that i have done and the words that i have said, i cant help but feel a sense of regret and despair. getting something that you really really want may be easy but holding on to it may not.

there are times when i feel like breaking down and cry…just cry..but when i stop and think about it, what’s the point of doing that? people say you look best when u’re in love. perhaps they’re right. but how would you know when you’re really in love?

problem is people profess their love way too lightly and this has made me think twice before believing it. it is hard to see others so happy together when u’re a mess urself. but as a friend, i will always feel happy for my friends who are in successful relationships with the ones they love. if possible, i hope that each and every one of my friend can be happy all the time and smile always!!

have you ever thought of yourself as ugly or just not good enough for the person you like? sigh…i bet there were loads..why cant we just appreciate the fact that we are not disabled, in good health and are able to live the day. many of us neglect that very blessing by complaining that they’re too fat, too thin, too short, too tall, too ugly..and wat not..oh well..wat can i say. i’m like that sometimes too..

BUT..there’s one thing that we all should realise is that no matter what happens in life, always look on the brighter side of it. you may not see it now but i bet you will eventually. a closed door may mean that there is an opened door somewhere.never give up on what you believe in as it is the only way to live life to the fullest!!!

have a great day everyone!!

oh haha..i din know you bothered to read my blogs, kenix..it gets boring as i continue blogging..haha..wonder why..jz losing the interest to blog n express i suppose.

hey, i wonder what’s up with sundays..naturally, i feel lazy and sleepy..i really cant figure out why..until today..all grown up at the age of 18..sigh..old age..lol..i used to tell me grandma i feel old, then she’d say, what about me?bleh..of course she’s older but she doesnt necessarily have to feel so isnt it?it’s like sundays normally blazing hot, the weather and surroundings seem rather dull and provoking me to sleep in the afternoons..

even typing this is making it so difficult for me..i’m like forcing myself to keep my eyes open and they are like drooping with every single passing second.someone please help me with this funny disorder..the malfunctioning of amy on sundays..

heng yong’s party yesterday was so cool although not as many as expected turned up but there were ppl i knew and missed seeing..then i met his cousin, whom i forgotten about..(OoPs) haha..not my fault..bad memory..and i saw D EtHaN.the sampat uncle to heng yong.hmm..it’s fun to have an uncle who’s not very much older than you are..it’ll basically make him like an older brother instead.

there were much teasings and accusations yesterday ..bleh..but it was great fun really..the rice n satay was good, the cake looked delicious, the ppl seemed friendly and the relatives seemed happy..it was like a modest gathering yesterday.

towards the end of the party, i went to play pool with Michael and i lost 2-1, but it was no biggie coz he knoew how to play and i didnt.i jz knew how to hit the ball without any skills whatsoever.

sometimes in life, you look at other ppl’s life, full with luxury and glamour but deep down ,it’s pretty much of the opposite..getting a super chunted car for probably no apparent reason isnt exactly how i look at life at a total different perspective..some ppl are born in rich families while others arent.However, there are certain things that money can’t buy..like your parents’ companionship and their unconditional love and protection for you.

i suppose it’s just a matter of an individual’s priority..which is more important to you at a certain stage in life..

i enjoy the times when i go for breakfast with my parents on sunday mornings and sometimes end up at the morning market nearby.we often chat in the afternoon over tea.talking about future plans and current issues.i miss those days when i get to go out with my mom for shopping trips and family vacations with my family..now i’m tied down with all the assignments in the world that it kills me for not being able to spend more time with my parents.

i dont know about you but my parents are very important to me..they mean the world to me..i know most of you would be delighted than any 3 yr old when ur parents are away but i’ll b devastated if they were to go for a vacation..

sigh,dont know what else to say already..suddenly jz lost the inspiration to carry on..i shall stop right here and continue some other day..

till then , have a smile !!

i meant you lah joanne!! blur case..

not many people read my blog lah ..weehheee..it’s nothing important anyway..it’s more like my online diary man..lol

haiyah, i’m like so lazy to type anything rite now..so maybe some other time ler..smile always!!