fickle minds

if i’m not mistaken, i havent posted a blog for over a week. thanx to all Taylor’s College teachers. they love me so much that they keep me so busy with their endless assignments, projects, presentations, interviews, case studies…..etc. it’s pretty hectic seeing that this is only my first month.there are more yet to come.oh well..this is life i suppose..

hm..personal life wise, i havent exactly met a guy who’s so attractive that i know i must have him on the spot.NOOOOOOOOO~ there are handsome but not so bright type, rich but not handsome type, smart but nerdy type, athletic but a bimbo type and the list goes on and on and on that i really cant get myself to liek any of them. met many but found none.hmmm…must be patient in order to get the grand prize..wee~

work is coming along well, so far i can still cope.hopefully it will till the end bcoz i already have lack of sleep everyday…EVERYday..OMG..really tiring.i walk to college like a zombie but thank god i havent walked into a wall yet.i believe that is just a matter of time.college life is fun really..i get to meet so many new faces everyday..a name to a face..there are the good and bad ppl. to me, i’m a very simple girl, the good ppl are the hardworking ones and the bad ppl are the lazy but want to score ones.what a sad life it is.

other than that…let’s see..to someone out there.. although i know you dont like me anymore and wished that i somehow would disappear from the face of earth, sorry to let you know that i wont.but neither will i bug you again. what you did to me was so mean i would never in my life imagine you doing this to me.maybe some other people would but definitely not you.so i guess you caught me on suprise the other day.perhaps we were not meant to be and i will gracefully accept that fact.but you could’ve told me earlier and not let me wait for you for nothing.i think the reason why you didnt tell me off the other time you called was bcoz you wanted to insure yourself with a gf once you’re ready and done.but unfortunately enough, i will not be that dummy waiting for you anymore.EVER AGAIN.i’ve waited long enough for you and this is what i get in return? well, it’s really unfair..

i wish you all the best in life..

in fact, i wish everyone who reads this all teh best in life,go for your dreams no matter how impossible it may seem or how much people discourage you. as long as you have the determination to do something, there’s nothing in the world that you can’t.so start dreaming!!!

when i thought everything was over, i was dead wrong. it was simply just the beginning of a heart break. the world evolves around me so swiftly that i can barely take a glance at it.before you know it, it’s over.

knowing a person better can only do 2 things to you. first, you like the person even more and second, the oppostie of it. i’d prefer to like people rather than to hate them. fortunately, i’m starting to like all my classmates..they’re really humourous, talks crap sometimes unlike me who does ALL the time. they listen and comment. it’s very soothing to know that there’s someone out there hwo actually cares for me.

sometimes i wonder what is going on in guys’ heads. one minute they say they hate you.another minute later, they fall for you.well this probably happened to many other girls but i would prefer having to know the truth from the very start. i just hate the guessing game.

today i met vincent early in the morning at the college’s cafeteria. we laughed like mad..at least he laughed.it was something that i didnt know existed in him.hmm..i hope u’re reading this vincent.very often, when you think you know someone, you actually dont at all.i suppose we cant always judge a book by its cover? besides i have nothing much to worry about, i made a bunch of wonderful girl friends in college which i thought i might not at first.

anyway, i just hope that all this friendships will last till the end…

please lah, korean dramas are a bunch of fairy tales intending to cheat gullible and innocent girls..and for the stars to be able to spend their fans’ hard-earned money on their nonsense.

well i’m here at college..having my break now.since i used only 10 minutes or so to eat, i had nothing to do but to blog a little..so sleepy that my brains cant function well..so point risking my assignments right? hmm..so far college is good. the people i met are all wonderful and lovely( this is only the beginning). the assignments at the moment are still bearable..i got to sleep at 12.10am seeing that i have done my presentation today, it was all well worth it.

i was trembling when i spoke.i dont know why because i dont normally do that. i’ve practised a million times and i think it’s because my team members took away all my time.learnt my lesson, never be the last speaker. sigh…do hope i did well because that’s gonna cost me everything. i wouldnt want to get a level 3 or less for my Families though. it’s gonna be tough cause the people in the class doesnt seem to care much about doing their work at their best..which hurts me a lot.

anyway, Walter has been changed to another class for English so the only time i’m seeing him is during Accounts.he doesnt speak much in class..i wonder why. i got to know the guy who wants to be a chartered accountant next time. i think his name is Ken? no idea really.hope he doesnt smoke..then i’ll probably end up with ZERO friends..which is terribly miserable.wouldnt want that to happen to me..not at such tender age no..

i also found out that my friend elaine is another shopaholic just like me..perhaps a little more serious than me. she shops for expensive stuff and doesnt admit it.haha.cute girl.so small i think i can carry her also..somemore says that she’s fat.dont know where have her eyes gone to.it’s 10 to 2 now.gotta get going soon..

another thing that i’ve hated since god knows when is when people copies my work and take it as their own.i didnt feel good at all today.i felt stupid in fact.repeating something that others have done when i was the one who was supposed to do it..LAME..

that’s all for today..will confide in you laterZ!!

well, thx for informing me about MY blog, well you know who you are.haha.it WAS an essential issue i would say, certainly not The most important thing.

forget it man d, not interested in hot guys anymore. i just found out that this Walter guy smokes.sad case lah he. you? what about you? i thought you were having a great time while mommy was around? you’ll be seeing her anyway right?

sigh..what a long day it was. it seems that i’m arriving at college earlier by the counting days. i think i’ll have to reach to college by 6am through half the semester. today was fairly acceptable as a not-much-things-to-say day.we had this ENGLISH assessment test which the results will be out next week.sadly cause i might have to take some pre-preparation course.

then it went on with Organizational Studies(OS) class.the teacher seems to like me. haha. which is a good thing. only yesterday he was trying to fool me. evil~ today he didnt even bother to call out my name when he was taking attendance.my god. but i saw him skipping through my name so i was relieved that i wasnt transferred like he lied to me about. the scariest thing though was that he came in and called out a student to go up front and answer his question.one by one, they all got the wrong answers. then yvonne volunteered to answer(obviously she got it right).

after OS was Accounts. the psychotic but hilarious teacher mine was her usual self, all laugh and more laughs..LoL. Had a good time in her class because it was less stressful, at least for now. but i cant focus entirely today after finding out about something that i’d rather not know. but i already do…sigh..once again. fyi, sighing is not my favourite thing to do, mind you. it’s just a bad day for me. 

next and my final class was Families. strict but speaks brilliant English teacher. we were assigned to do this genogram which i found out only today it was another word for family tree. not only i had to do that, i had another group assignment due next week if i’m not mistaken.not too good with dates. luckily cezlynn was in the same group since she has the like THE most beautiful handwriting apart from Huey Shyan’s.

after a continuous 5 hours straight of class, i dont think i could think straight. as always, the corridor is full of walking beings. or some even hanging out. but i had to rush to starbucks to meet up with my friends for an assignment. once i was done i went right back home and drove like a mad person( at least i’m being honest to myself?) after changing into a fresh set of clothes, i went out to do some of my pending errands.came home and got scolded by my beloved Mother. bla bla bla….the same old thing again and again and again. maybe a little more angry sometimes.well what can i do but to listen?

so to avoid all the chaos that i sensed would happen i stayed for another second, i scurried off back to my room, decided that i should start on some work. and so i had. i did some of it and thought i could use a nap since i wake up at 6 everyday and am having insomnia lately. then i woke up and went downstairs to do my daily i-promise-i-would-do-everyday exercise. not lonf after it was dinner time.i ate while chatting with my bro.then my mom came scolding me AGAIN.for the second time in a day.hmm..i guess people do get cranky when they grow older.so i quickly ended my conversation with my bro and went on to do my work.and so now i’m here blogging..or perhaps chatting with the computer since i barely could speak to my mom now and seeing that she’s the only woman(other than my maid) in the house, i had to turn to this.

truly hope tomorrow will be a better day!!

Have a great weekend everyone..

adrian, fyi, i found out where Netherlands is already.LoL.

hmm..my day started off well i would put it.er..found a parking right at the junction to enter taylor’s. my god, i really dont know what these people here do having to reach so early to college.must be crazy.so i had to follow their craziness just to ensure that i get a parking which is not too far from college since i have to carry my insanely huge and heavy bag.

class started and as usual, we talked a lot.there’s this korean guy dunno which class already.i’m so confused. he’s rather um…quiet.havent heard him spoke a word other than correcting the lecturer on the pronounciation of his name.quite leng chai.hehe.

oh yeah, another marvellous thing happened today!! remember the guy i said who had a fierce look? i just found out he’s such a sweetie!! haha..very friendly and nice person. i was so WRONG. he’s Walter.absolutely HOT!! i was so wrong, omg. i feel so bad having to think what i thought before..once again being ultimately JUDGEMENTAL..oh besides, he has BEAUTIFUL eyes, amazingly sharp nose, and his long curly hair gives me butterflies!!i nearly passed out when we had an eye contact today while we were talking in class..i do hope that we’ll get to know each other better in the future?

hmm..other than that, i got to know a Bobby, Jean, Ian and Soo Yieng!! so happy!! i love meeting new friends!! yipppee!! cant wait till tomorrow.. all the best to everyone out there..

college is fun alrite but getting to know people is superb!! i had a great time smiling all the way today in college after the lecturers threw their sense of humours at us. woke up exceptionally early this morning. drove to college and arrived at approximately 7.15am. it was chilly. and there were barely any parking left. these college peeps are mad i tell you. i wonder what time do they wake up. it’s stressful to have to reach college so early every morning but i guess it’s good in a way that i can sleep lesser. i met a handful of new friends, they are Nethia, Michelle, Jo, Dianne, Coleen, and Mira. well all of them were girls cause they were one of the earliest to enter the class. i met a guy who looks ok, had a gorgeous smile which melts my heart. he was fair and tall and had a dimple when he smiled. then i met another guy during the other class. suprisingly, there was this guy who kept looking at me..which made me rather uncomfortable i would say.but at least i know that i am still attractive to ONE guy.LoL..

oh, other than that, there was this guy who’s from Netherlands? God knows where that is but i’m making it a point to look up on the atlas later..he looks alright but still he has that angry face on him.perhaps it’s because he doesnt smile as much as i do. wow. n then i met this guy in Families class. he was only 15???!!! my god, i felt so insulted. but he was friendly so it’s not intimidating i suppose. after that i went straight to the gym for my daily workout. am totally exhausted right now..extremely burnt out really.

i am wondering if i still have feelings for him. i saw this guy at the gym who looks like him from far and i thought it was him knowing that he isnt. is it worth it to like someone who doesnt care? maybe sometimes it is but as time goes by, i’m getting worried that i might have put in my effort on the wrong person.well, i certainly hope to get answer asap..college is amazing!!! i’m definitely looking forward to what the future holds for me!! wee~

9.30am: Arrived at ss15 Subang Jaya. Driving around searching for parking.

9.50am: Still searching for parking. There seems to be endless cars around this area!!

10.00am: This is frustrating!!!!

10.03am: OMG! Is that a parking i see? Oh YES YES YES!! Phew~ Thank god i found one if not i’d b late for ORIENTATION. Like anyone cares.

10.10am: Walked towards Taylor’s College. At least the weather wasn’t nastily hot today.

10.17am: Thanks to the take-my-own-sweet-time-to-walk attitude. Saw Cezlynn and we went for the orientation together.

10.25am: ”Students!! Please line up according to the initials of your name.” let’s see..who said that again? i have no idea.

10.35am: I went up stage to collect the documents that i was required to. Out of nowhere, i saw this HOT probably Canadian hunk entering the lecture hall. And that was when i thought i was gonna die of the deprieve of hot guys, there was a little glint of hope. HEHE..i was ecstatic!!

11.30am: THE people talked and talked and talked and talked. I yawned for the what was like 20th time in the morning and tried my best to stay awake.

12.45pm: I turned back and was hoping i could ‘accidentally’ steal a glance of the amazingly good looking guy. AND while i gave up on my manhunt, i saw him. adn the best part was…He looked back at me!!! Imagine how i felt..WooHOo!!

1.30pm: Went to the gym for a workout..BOrIng~ but the thought of that mystery guy kept me going and going for an hour.

3.30pm: Returned to my sanctuary…With a tired body and a peace of mind..Knowing that there’s hope..

i dont know where to start but i’ll like to talk about you first. the first time we met it was just an exchange of glances. you had company and so did i. but that didnt seem to stop me from knowing you.

the days that we were together made me feel like i was on cloud nine. and the naive me thought that it could last for a long time. i was head over heels in love with you but you were acting as if i didnt make any difference in your life. it tore my heart as crushed my hope of having a serious relationship with you and that was that.

perhaps to you i dont play a significant role in your life but you do in mine. unfortunately i doubt that we can live together under such circumstances. you never seemed to be bothered whether i was dead or alive..well that truly hurts.

i would like to wish you the very best in your studies which is your top priority and stay at the pink of health always!!

why is everyone so troubled lately while i’m almost emotionless? i’ve once loved and lost the ones who will always be remembered regardless of the time that has passed me by without much realisation. hence we learn from people’s mistakes instead of making our own. sometimes it’s hard to let go but it’s the only way to be happy ( believe it or not). i do wish that everyone can be happy but that’s not gonna happen isnt it ? then how else are we suppose to know what is sorrow and despair?

all my friends out there, i truly hope that you all will find your very own happiness whether it’s gonna take you one day or a year, as long as you’ve experienced the feeling.

there are times when i feel like breaking down and cry but the tears just refuse to show. oh well, that’s life..

actually i don’t really know what to say now because i’m not feeling anything or going through anything than my daily routine..someone please suprise me..bleh..